Sunday, October 30, 2011

Staying Strong

For some reason I have not had the desire to blog. I still don't but need to for my sake. The past few weeks have been kind of lame, but a few moments that made my mood lighten up.  Last week was fall break. I took a few extra days to go deer hunting. I love hunting. I love being in nature and I love spending time with my family.  The day I go back my room mates got to experience a close call  of me throwing up. I didn't but it was close.  The next night we discovered that Micaille has a hidden talent. She can talk like Kermit the Frog.
Miss and  I went to our first Aggie basketball game. They are CRAZY!! I love them! Yesterday I went to The Howl with my roommates. Nothing to exciting there just dirty dancing and a whole bunch of people mackin' out. 
Today I skipped church. I over slept. Now I am just so tired I don't even know what do to with myself. 
Right now I miss home. I miss my friends. I miss my family. I need to go home, but I have 3 more weeks till I get to come home next. I can make it. I know I can. I just need to be tough.  I am going to live by this quote for the next 3 weeks. 
 Promise me you'll always remember: You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think
A.A Milne
now I just need a hug from my sister, from my mom, from anyone.

Monday, October 17, 2011

Best moment of my life

So last Saturday I was driving home from the football game viewing and noticed a pink cowboy hat
It looked liked this
M&F <em>Woody Pink Cowboy Hat</em>
I made Jared pick it up. It was kind of wet and gross.... so I didn't really want it. I put it on some random door in my building. Today when I was walking up the stair some Guy was wearing it standing in the hall way. I wanted to start laughing but I had to hold in it. I just looked at him and said " I like your hat" Missy replied with "It so cute!"
This made my day!!

Thursday, October 13, 2011

A good laugh

Missy and I came across this video a long time ago
We totally forgot about it till tonight
I cant stop watching it
I don't know if it is real or not
but it is so funny.

this is me. This is Kim. or is it?

Since I started this blog just for me I feel like I need to be more honest. Make it more me. Sure all of the post have been fun stuff that I have enjoyed while here at college,but I have failed to mentions the parts that really make me stronger.
My life have been in an extreme uphill run for me. My emotions have just been thrown at me. I don't know what wrong with me. As much as I love college. I hate it. I miss how my life use to be. I feel like my friends are gone. The one that I want to keep my friend forever is slowing falling away. I know it is not good make assumptions about situations that I fully don't know. I just feel like every time I talk to her she doesn't want to talk to me. I just feel weird.
I sometimes hate who I am. I a shy, nervous and awkward girl. I wish I could be anyone I wanted myself be with out being frightened or flat out scared. I wish I was good at making friends. I wish peopled wanted to be my friends.I wish I had that personality that when I walk in a room the mood of the room shifts. I don't though. I walk into a room and sit in silence hoping someone will come and talk to me. I hear stories of people on campus who have so much fun with so many people. I don't I sit at home feeling sorry for myself.
 I am so grateful for being where I am. I need to be here. I don't want to be but I am here.
I know in life we can change they way we act and how we feel. For the most part I am good at keeping a great and happy attitude but after awhile it gets draining. I break down. I am breaking down now. I can't help it. I hate being weak. I hate feeling the way I am feeling. I hate the way I am acting. From this point on I am just going to be me.
I thought I knew who I was, but now I am starting to wonder. Who I am really? I am the person I want to be? I think I am. I have qualities that I wanted and I developed them and I was blessed with many. I just feel like I can be so much more. How do I do that? That I just don't know.
That is going to be a journey for me. Most likely a really long journey. I am lost... but somehow I will find myself again.
I don't remember what I wrote and I am not going to go back and read it. I just hope I have no regrets of what was just said. I don't think I will. I hope I will read back at a later date and see how I have grown.

Today I am missing tanner, so much. I cry for him. Today who have been his 1 yr mark, but instead it is his 4 month mark. In tanners letter this week he wrote: time goes by so fast! Can't believe Christmas is almost here, Christmas will be my 6 month mark! whats funny is tomorrow should be my year mark. Things don't always go according to plan or the way we think they should go, But i suppose it will always work out in the end.It always has so far in my past don't see how this would be any different. 
I miss him. I wish he was here. There a a few thing I want to do before he gets home.
1. Fill up the change jar for him.
2. Not get married. ( I want him at my wedding)
3. Write piano music for one of his songs.
4. Don't do anything that will make him disappointed in me.

Look at this! I miss this!
I wish he was here
I need one of his hugs

For right now there is nothing I can do. I know I am making this worst but dwelling on them, but sometimes I think it is perfectly fine.We all need a little sadness in our life. If we didn't we wouldn't fully love the happy times in our life. 

My best friend sent me this quote " God does notice us& he watches over us, but if is usually through another person that he meets our needs." Spencer W Kimball
I really believe this. I have seen it. Right I am praying for this. I need this.

Saturday, October 8, 2011


You seriously have not lived until you have attended a Utah State Football Game!!! 
They are Crazy!!!! They give you the chill the student section is the best!!!! 
We won tonight!!! 63-19!!! 
If you haven't seen the student section here is a little taste of it
oh and here is the scotsmen it is the best song ever!


Tonight was just supposed to be a watch a movie and eat pizza with my roommates. We did do that but it turned out to be so much more
1st we order pizza
2nd we wait for the pizza
3rd pizza arrives
4th we notice we got the wrong pizza
5th Lorelle Grabs the pizza and starts to run after the pizza lady
6th at the same time I run to the window and start yelling " you gave us the wrong pizza"
7th missy is at the other window just looking out.
8th lorelle reaches the pizza lady
9th we have to wait for the pizza again
10th we all just sit and wait
11th loud knock on the door scares me and I almost fall off the couch
12th Micaille grabs the pizza and tries to set it down but missed the table and it landed on the floor
13th we start the movie and eat the pizza anyways
14th after movie we watch all 6 kid history
15th they go to bed. I stay up and clean

p.s. funny story
Yesterday I found my cheese in the cupboard above the sink, I guess I put it there instead of the fridge when I was putting it away after I made me some lunch.

I can't forget Pinterest
best picture for the day

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Break time!

Break Time! I need a break from homework.
I have been working on it FOREVER!!!
But I have gotten a lot done, yet
I still have a lot more to do!

I love pinterest
here are some of my favorite pictures for this week


Tuesday, October 4, 2011

A little stressed...

I can't find my room key...
I don't have the money to get a new one
I know it is in my room...
I had it when I came home from my class yesterday.
but I couldn't find it when I had to leave for my math class
I didn't go anywhere I stayed home all day.
I have torn my room apart and I can't find it...
I don't know what to do now....
This is stressing me out.

Monday, October 3, 2011

a weekend

I wish I was in the mood to write a long blog post... but I am not. I had such a crazy week. here are just some highlights
~ Had a surprise party for Dani ( which is a whole post itself)
~ Went home for the weekend
~ went to a rodeo ( saw some pretty good lookin cowboy's)
~ Went to Zupa's with Alexis ( ran over a box on the way)
~ Went to conference with missy
 For now thats all.

just a little something that makes me happy.


I want to get married so bad