My mind is going to explode!

For some reason lately I keep thinking of all these questions I want answers too.
Questions like:
Who I am going to marry?
I am really choosing the right major?
I am going on a mission?
Should I stay at Utah State?
I am going to meet my husband at school?
What classes should I take?
What should I wear tomorrow?
When am I going to get married
Will I know him before?
Where am I going to live next year?
What's for dinner?
and so many more questions.
my mind is just full of them.
I am trying to find answers to my questions
I know a lot of them are going to take time
I know I wont always find my answers.
I pray.
All my questions will be answered someday

on top of the questions.... I am a dreamer. 

I think of how I want everything to go

Who should be there

I am driving myself crazy. 

I mind is just so tired. 

I need a break but I don't know how to slow down my mind.

It just keeps going

On that note.... My thanksgiving week was amazing!

I loved it.

I miss all of my friends.

We had so much fun. 

I even went on a date. 

who even know how long its been

way to long!

I loved last week

It makes me smile just thinking about it.

Christ is real! He Lives! and meet ours needs

Today was weird. I am grateful for this day. I was blessed to feel the spirit so many times today. I gained a stronger testimony of Christ. He is so much aware of us. He really does know exactly what we need. I know I have been blessed to witness this in my life but today it was second hand that my testimony has grown. I came home yesterday and got to send some wonderful time with my family. Today I went to young womens and heard the most beautiful story. To summarize it quick. Son got cancer. 25% chance to live. Mom prayed knew her son was going to live. He did.
Once home from church my cousins and sierra came over for dinner. I had a nice chat with Sierra (read it, Follow it. She'll love it!) She told me a story that touched me so much. She had a tough time a while back. When she needed something to lift her up she received a letter in the mail. That letter was exactly what she needed to hear. Cheered her up. Made her day.
I just know that heavenly father really does loves us. He knows exactly what we need. When we need it and how we need it.
On a happy note...
I love my family! Today I got to spend time with them at good ol' stretch parties.  Just gotta love 'em!

Back to junior english

When I was a junior in high school every day when class started we would just write for 15 min, we just wrote. We never thought about what to write. sometimes it was surprising of what was written. It is every relaxing sometimes. I am going to give it a try. first time since that class ended. 

never really know what to say. I never know what to write or how to write it. English is something that I have always struggled with. I took A.P. English once. It was hard, but i proved to myself that I can do hard things. I accomplish something that stressed me out. Even cause me to cry a few times. I cry a lot. well not really but sometimes everyone needs a good cry. we are all humans. Speaking of humans... where do they come from? what domain are we? what is our family? I have a biology test on this on Monday. I am nervous. I am scared for it. I have a hard time in school. School has never been easy for me. I miss my brother. I love him so much. There are certain times when I just wish he was here. He is my best friend. We were not always close. but we are now. he is one a mission. His mission has been a different one. He came home for 6 months now he is back out. He is doing good. I kind of wish for a boyfriend. have I ever mentioned how much I love weddings. I just love them. actually I am obsessed with them. I just love love love them. why? well I really don't know. I want to get married. I really do. I hope it is not to far off like 2 years but I could get married tomorrow...  I really could. Kaydie Jo is coming this weekend. oh I sure hope that this weeks goes by fast so I can go home. I miss home. i wish I had a car. I would go home more often. I don't really think I am going to get one soon. I need to stop wishing about getting one. I am thinking I should stop. It is almost 4 and i got church tomorrow. I guess it is a good thing it starts at one. well good night.

favorite pinterest photo for the day!

I love cowboys!!!!!!

sorry for the long post but....

I don't have a lot of time so I will make this quick. Monday night was the best! I am so lame. My only friends are my roommates( No Joke).
Monday was Halloween and we were doing nothing.
We were just taking naps.
Well we decided be a little exciting and went to a hunted house that housing government put on.
Missy had a soccer game so I escorted her so she wouldn't have to walk home alone.
When we were almost we witnessed probably the most funniest thing I have seen since I started college.
We were walking along and two girls walked out of their building. They were running and the ground was quite wet. Well one of them slipped and rolled. It was one of those " you had to be there moments" but I seriously could not stop laughing.
I am still laughing.
Later we (my roommates) decided we needed to do something. We thought treat! Sugar cookies peanut butter balls. A simple little treat turned into lets make better then sex cake and make a quick run to Walmart.  At 11:37 we got in the car and drove to Walmart. We only 4 items on our list. Cake mix, heath bar, cool whip and soda. We walked in and it was getting destroyed!!! All the freezer isles were caution taped off. the egg sections was completely gone.

going to walmart at 11:37

See no eggs

A simple short trip turned into a hour long super duper fun trip.  One of the items from our list was down the freezer section which, was caution taped off... So guess who tried to sneak down and grab the cool whip. yup me! I would have gotten away with it if it was for the boys who decided to start yelling "Isle 2 , Isle 2!" So just as I was grabbing the cool whip and making my get away, a short , mustached mexian came around the corner and caught me, but I ran. I got away, and I got the cool whip!
The Heath bars were the last things left on the list. The candy isle was filled with the extra halloween candy. The worker told us it was half price at midnight. so we waited and each got a bag. As we were waiting for 12'o clock we walked down the isle.  We found a few more things to buy....

We came home with this!!

at 12:37

To complete halloween night we watched Zoolander...

 We made it to bed around 4-4:30! such a fun night!
 

Staying Strong

For some reason I have not had the desire to blog. I still don't but need to for my sake. The past few weeks have been kind of lame, but a few moments that made my mood lighten up.  Last week was fall break. I took a few extra days to go deer hunting. I love hunting. I love being in nature and I love spending time with my family.  The day I go back my room mates got to experience a close call  of me throwing up. I didn't but it was close.  The next night we discovered that Micaille has a hidden talent. She can talk like Kermit the Frog.

Miss and  I went to our first Aggie basketball game. They are CRAZY!! I love them! Yesterday I went to The Howl with my roommates. Nothing to exciting there just dirty dancing and a whole bunch of people mackin' out. 

Today I skipped church. I over slept. Now I am just so tired I don't even know what do to with myself. 

Right now I miss home. I miss my friends. I miss my family. I need to go home, but I have 3 more weeks till I get to come home next. I can make it. I know I can. I just need to be tough.  I am going to live by this quote for the next 3 weeks. 

Promise me you'll always remember: You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think A.A Milne

now I just need a hug from my sister, from my mom, from anyone.

Best moment of my life

So last Saturday I was driving home from the football game viewing and noticed a pink cowboy hat
It looked liked this

I made Jared pick it up. It was kind of wet and gross.... so I didn't really want it. I put it on some random door in my building. Today when I was walking up the stair some Guy was wearing it standing in the hall way. I wanted to start laughing but I had to hold in it. I just looked at him and said " I like your hat" Missy replied with "It so cute!"
This made my day!!

A good laugh

Missy and I came across this video a long time ago

We totally forgot about it till tonight

I cant stop watching it

I don't know if it is real or not

but it is so funny.